Sunday, January 28, 2007
2007 National Canoeing Marathon
I fell in love with today... but in a sense rather disappointed... I'm glad I won the Gold medal for the Novice Category today but the same would not had been applied in the Juniors competition. Based on the timings and positions, I would had came in quite late...maybe the 7-10th or worst position if i had joined the Juniors 22km race...But then again...maybe if I had joined the Juniors I would had been much more disappointed...I call for unfairness for Yirui...check out his blog to know more abt his race... Yirui may had been 3rd in the National Juniors category but he had oredi bagged 1st in my eyes if not for the obstacles! Like Yirui, I would like to comment on the T2's performance today! Daniel, Joel, Derek and Darren. They suffered not only the toughest physical challenge but also very though mental challenge. The challenge to give up during the race after their boats went down...But No... They did not give up even after their boat sank... They got back on the boat and finished the race... These are really the true winners in our team... I'm not as strong minded as many of the people in my team and tend to give up easily... If I had been in their position, I might had given up the race. So Daniel, Joel, Derek and Darren...nice race today...lets bag more medals the next time!The gals in our team did very well today... They all won medals! Jing Ting got a 3rd position in the women's K1 Juniors category, Hsing Yee 1st in Novice category and Anju 2nd in the Novice category. And I saw Violet today...shes my secondary school mate now studying int PJC...she was 2nd in the Women's K2 juniors category... Johnaton won a 6th positon in his Junior's category which was very well done considering he had the most competitive category today...well done to all medal winners! Finally a great thx to all those who encouraged me and cheered me on today! I really appreciated it! P.S: Anyone treatin me lunch for bagging 1st?
i'm not emo @ 9:13 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
A short love story...As simple as this...
>My husband is an Engineer by profession,>I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean>against his broad shoulders.>>>>Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have>to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him >before,>has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a >sentimental>woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my >feelings,>I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy.>My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and>the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has >disheartened>me about love.>>>>One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a >divorce.>>>"Why?" he asked, shocked.>"I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!">I answered.>>>He kept silent the whole night,>seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.>My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even>express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?>>>And finally he asked me:" What>can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to>change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing>faith in him.>>>Looking deep into his eyes I slowly>answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my>heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the>face of a mountain cliff, and we both are>>sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for>me?">>>He said :" I will give you>your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.>>>I wokeup the next morning to find>him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, >underneath>a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....>>>My dear,>>"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain>the reasons further..">>>This first line was already breaking>my heart. I continued reading.>>>"When you use the computer>you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the >screen,>I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.>>>You always leave the house keys>behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door>for you.>>>You love traveling but always lose>your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.>>>You always have the cramps whenever>your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my>palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.>>>You like to stay indoors, and I>worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save>my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.>>>You always stare at the computer,>and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so>that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove>those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling>down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and>tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your>young face...>>>Thus, my dear, unless I am sure>that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick>that flower yet, and die.. ">>>>My tears fell on the letter, and>blurred the ink of his handwriting...>>and as I conntinue on reading...>>>"Now, that you have finished>reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for>I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...>>>I rush to pull open the door, and>saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle>and loaf of bread....>>>Now I am very sure that no one will>ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower>alone...>>>That's life, and love. When one>is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends>to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.>>>Love shows up in all forms, even>very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the>most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used>and appear on the surface of the relationship.>>>Under all this, the pillar of true>love stands... and that's our life...>>>>Love, not words win arguments...>>>Anonymous
I'm changing for love...are you? Cheers!!!
i'm not emo @ 11:06 PM
Time Consuming Factors...
Who said projects was a killer? No it ISNT...now...WHO THE HELL SAID THAT PROJECT MEMBERS ALL CONTRIBUTE AND MAKE LIFE EASIER? I'LL KILL THAT GUY/GAL AND CHOP HIM/HER UP AND DUMB HIM/HER BODY PARTS IN KALLANG RIVER WHEN I GO KAYAKING NEXT TIME! Ok I'm not saying they are not doing anything because I can see them trying! BUT FOR GOODNESS SAKE LISTEN TO WAT OTHERS HAVE TO SAY...AND THOSE WHO WAN TO SAY SOMETHING JUS SAY IT DAMMIT DUN KEEP QUIET AND LET TIME PASS! I know u are shy and all and timid to say stuff BUT HELL DUN JUS COMPLAINT TO ME AND LET ME SAY IT FOR U...I'M LIKE THE ONE WHO GETS SCOLDED... Well watever the case is I'm fustrated with myself for not being able to accomodate with everyone and communicate well with my grp members...I do understand the stress level for everyone now is at the max SO AM I GODDAMNIT! So lets just chill stuff and get along till this freaking piece of crappy stress overloading shit is over...I mean we are still frens afterall no need to get worked up over such stuff...JUS EDIT I CAN DO IT LIKE 100000 TIMES NO PROB!Didnt go for training today...woke up wif a fever...had a few bad days...thurs and fri food poisoning slept for only afew hrs due to projs sat and sun consecutive training in the morning when I jus recovered from food poisoning and tried to push myself to my max but didnt progress well...still losing slp at this hour because of projects but HELL I'M HAVING A GREAT TIME VENDING MY STRESS ON MY BLOG! AND I LOVE IT!
i'm not emo @ 1:12 AM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Race Your Heart Out!
Why do we train? Why is it we are toturing ourselves physically & mentally each day by training? What is it that we train for? Do you think u are up to it just by training?We train for the purpose of winning. We toture ourselves physically & mentally so that we grow stronger each time we hit our limits and our limits extend each time we train. I train to win something in my live, not the medals, not the prize...but the respect I wish to earn, even if I do not win, I won't lose badly. I duno if I'm the winning type, but I won't back down without a good fight! Training thus prepares me.The marathon is around the corner. I jus returned from training at kallang, overall I was not very satisfied with today's training because I was still unable to give my 100% into it. I think I only did like 70%? Maybe its because I slept at 4am...hmm?Will I be able to do my 100% during the race? I wish I can like go to selektar and train there for at least 1 session to get use to the route there so that I can be mentally prepared. Shall ask Damien abt this. I'm such a loser. Not the lousiest loser but one of the worst...maybe the nt the last either!(I dun wanna be Last...not auspicious since race is coming!). I'm talking abt my life...Its a mess! Someone asked me to focus on studies rather than other STUFF...My dog's asking me to go out and play wif him-.-...ok i'll go play wif him than study=P...haha...Projects a killer...Econs due next week(70% my part done)...Marketing due next next week(80% overall done!)...crap I'm gona finish all this projects by next week and Econs by Sunday! no joke! Alright all the best Alfred! Oh oh! and er...when will you give me a reply? hope its positive! cya ppl!
i'm not emo @ 10:28 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Who Will Be My Valentine?
Today is 14th of January...1mth away is Valentines day...There was one Valentines day I went out wif a bunch of frens and one of the gal was supposed to be my valentine...But we decided to go out wif our frens as a grp 1st so we can enjoy our Valentine later in the evening or smth...But it didn't turn out as we planned...after lunch the grp of us went to K-box and after that the Movies...and then the clique had dinner at Swensens...that's when this fren of my went outside for awhile and came back wif a bouquet of roses and kneel in front of my supposed Valentine and expressed his love...I was stunned as she was...he was a very good fren of mine but i had nvr knew he secretly admired her...although i knew that he had always been very nice to her...i was totally confused at that very moment...wondering what shld i do? what shld i say? what is going to happen? but my expression on face showed only 1 thing...anxiety...wat will my valentine say? will she accept his love? i know her well and in an event like this i know she will try to not let anyone get embarrassed...i knew her answer all along before she spoke...but when she still said those words, i felt like i've been dumped...i thought i was prepared...that she was just acting...but i still couldnt accept the fact that she said:" thank you very much, i appreciate ur love." Those words hit me hard...i half-expected her to reject him...but she didn't...shes too nice to do so...i felt like i'm the one rejected...i've actually planned a romantic evening to spend wif her by the beach...but in the end i told her: sry i'm tired after today, i hope u'll have fun wif him...shall go home now bye!I ended the day...i didn't have courage to look into her eyes to see it turning red...but i knew her eyes were turning red...i walked away knowing that she replied the guy wif no intention of hurting me...nor did she had intentions to hurt him...but i would had prefered if she had hurt him...that might had made me feel better...SELFISH...tat's wat i am...love is selfish anyway...u need to fight...but then again...i am CHILDISH...does that make my love childish too?I never contacted that girl again besides seeing her in school and she now oredi has a boyfriend although it isn't the guy who proposed...what would had happened if i had continue to carry the plan that night? well its over and no use thinking of it...A person too nice is wat makes regret painful.This Year 2007...who will be my valentine? i oredi have one in mind^^! bye!
i'm not emo @ 11:33 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Pick A Memory & Throw A Nightmare!
Heloooo! Its me again...Alfred! This hopless guy who hasn't been blogging for like ages. Nevertheless I feel like blogging alittle now! Looking back all my life...I still find Secondary School days the best...Wif my grp of friends from secondary school days...The Bballers, the CAB & CPK( chao ah beng & chao pai kias ), those forever wierd attitude+lovely gals, the forever bullying us seniors and of course the teachers who never turned us away nor did they ever gave up and even joined us in certain activities( bball, soccer, frisbee, gaming)! In Final Conclusion! Secondary School Days Rox back then...i have so many regrets up till now...i wish i can relive my life with my current memories & achievements...Well somethings never change...i wonder wat u are all doing right now?(well looking at this page written by this emo guy of course!) But i really really really wonder what is it you really want to do right now?(close this page and check out other ppl's blog?Dun BE MEAN!) What i wanna do right now is to call someone by the name of God and ask him: Did you ever wished you could relive your life? I wonder what his answer would be(Of course not! I'm GOD! What more can I ask for?) For now I'm not really contented with what I have...oh yea...I'm Greedy! What else did you think I was?I've been dropped out of the Junior's competition for kayaking and put into Novice...Like HELLO??? WATS THAT?? novice... well its said to have higher chance for winning...i duno maybe its true...maybe i'm not ready who knows? But well 16Km compared to 22Km is definately much easier by 6Km...16Km...hmm I sort of felt relived and at the same time lousy...at least i've completed 16Km in a good timing...i'm like always giving up the last 2 triangles after the 1st 4...no stamina...argh!!!Tat's all i guess...Elfi's starting to bark and its irritating me...i'm gona BBQ him and have him for Supper...bye!P.S: I'm freaking hungry thx to some Ass who doesnt want to have dinner wif me!( FEEL BAD ABOUT IT!!! =P )
i'm not emo @ 8:46 PM
