Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Blog?
HeLo? Yea its Me again...Alfred...The Guy...OK so watsup?Hmm...i'm like really busy for the past few weeks...sch's started and stuff...and i cant stay up all night to blog cox if i dun have enough slp...my temper can get really bad...Now...u dun wan to be wif some guy wif low blood pressure and a really mean temper in class or Out right? So yea...its gona be a peek-a-boo on when i'm gona blog abt stuff...Now Lets start...hmm...today was the worst training ever...Kallang was in a HUGE mess...Leaves,dirt,currents,rain,lightning,thunder....And On top of that...there was no movtivation around...i felt like i stood no chance against my team mates...might as well try though...but seriously i guess everything went wrong...I dun mind taking the S1 seriously...but hell wat was the darn problem?i still dun know...I guess i am pretty pissed wif myself today after the training...wats wrong today??Why was it that i can't push myself and do better?...i cant find this watever "motivation" thing in myself...Isnt it suppose to come from the Team??? And it seems my team is getting smaller...I'm not happy to see it shrink...will anyone else leave us next???...I tink it might be me...If this team is going to leave me behind...i will not progress...thus i won't see a point in staying and being a hindrance to others...i guess many might think like me...To Sky...maybe kayaking is not really the sport u can do well in...but dun give up on other stuff...i wish u all the best and success in watever u do...I'm still ur friend in watever times...though sometimes i get pissed easily by ur words and i threw my temper alittle...i apologise for it...but be sure not to forget me as a friend...Man...I'm getting pretty sad and pissed right now...No longer have any mood to blog...but i wish everyone else A happy day tomorrow after a good night's slp...nitex!
i'm not emo @ 9:52 PM
